tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14779196255180200802024-02-18T22:52:55.063-08:00Emily Brown Writes StuffEmilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.comBlogger428125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-41018462674214124042016-10-24T10:12:00.002-07:002016-10-24T10:13:15.792-07:00HoleHere, you said, is the hole in me. It is called Loneliness. It is here, beneath my left ribs. And you moved my hand to probe it. I said, I would like to make my home there. Will Loneliness leave you if it is filled with my body? No, you said, the hole is not a bedroom. The hole is not a swimming pool. The hole is bigger than your body, even if it is sitting here, fist-sized, in mine. If you live in it, you will drown in it. If you try to fill it, you will be surrounded by it. Beloved, I said, but can it be filled with my love, wide as the sea, expanding like the clouds? No, you replied. Only with love of my own.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-42901704516064792072016-10-24T09:37:00.000-07:002016-10-24T10:04:18.801-07:00Collected Twitter Poems<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-lang="en">
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Oh! Beloved,<br />
you have made of me<br />
a watering can,<br />
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And what can grow<br />
out of this shielded Eden<br />
But murky fruits,<br />
too pivotal to handle?</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/789588056475000832">October 21, 2016</a></blockquote>
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2 matches, 3 matches, 4<br />
hot plumes rise like 1, packed light,<br />
lay down darkribbed<br />
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I unpack and unpack;<br />
ravel a sock, unfold a map<br />
sit, sigh</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/786678088860049408">October 13, 2016</a></blockquote>
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still I swing between god and not-god;<br />
god admits he is pushing the swing</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/782799845949976576">October 3, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Time teaches me<br />
to filter air<br />
to swallow stones<br />
to serve tears to guests</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/777717865034100736">September 19, 2016</a></blockquote>
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the cure: I open my fists,<br />
press palms to thighs/elbows/cheeks,<br />
and say:<br />
"you are not in limbo!<br />
you are alive all over!<br />
you are right here!"</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/777289087229100032">September 17, 2016</a></blockquote>
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2<br />
bleeds bleeds bleeds bleeds bleeds<br />
whose is this body?!<br />
does it love me or love you?<br />
no, it reminds whining<br />
i loved the baby you have lost</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/776605125813018624">September 16, 2016</a></blockquote>
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2. At some point I learned<br />
Not to sing when I am crying<br />
Not to cry when I am bleeding<br />
Not to bleed when I am cut!<br />
But yes, I cower when bent</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/776546741906616320">September 15, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Someday I'll say, wait,<br />
that's me, I'm made of belief,<br />
I'm a world washing over with love after grief,<br />
Peacemaker/keeper forgiveness machine</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/770317701772222464">August 29, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Be not afraid of a sour heart.<br />
When you come to me,<br />
Be loved, beloved,<br />
And say to your lemoned center:<br />
Sweeten up, bitter fist—<br />
This is mine</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/765199052778541057">August 15, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Amen, amen<br />
Guitar on stomach, wheeze balloon whistles out of throat-<br />
Darkpine branches, strain at window-<br />
And press in, indigo summer,<br />
amen.</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/745100617471791106">June 21, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Back at home,<br />
I get to sigh the sigh made of<br />
plasticskinned<br />
dusteyed<br />
waxtoothed<br />
woolhaired<br />
paperscalped<br />
sandfaced<br />
metalsternumbed<br />
chest pain</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/740791565292056576">June 9, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Pinball brain:<br />
wake up! where are you?<br />
Of all beds we have slept in, all the white-morning windows,<br />
And who is that coming through the door?</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/735184672309682176">May 24, 2016</a></blockquote>
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Some sad is inescapable!<br />
Settle in, dissolving salteye,<br />
But know this:<br />
All my other faces pay rent.</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/734594002100555776">May 23, 2016</a></blockquote>
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It is hard to be:<br />
Alive or yours<br />
Or dead or alone<br />
Or kind or good<br />
Or mean or selfish<br />
To be five or twenty<br />
And all these multiply each other</div>
— Emily Brown (@emilybrownmusic) <a href="https://twitter.com/emilybrownmusic/status/734180852947509248">May 22, 2016</a></blockquote>
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<script async="" charset="utf-8" src="//platform.twitter.com/widgets.js"></script>Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-39069481257876902242016-10-24T09:31:00.001-07:002016-10-24T10:04:18.792-07:00In this house of skin even the furniture shines with heat<br />
Like salamanders, burning bushes, like the phoenix,<br />
I am consumed and regurgitated by the mouth of fire.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-44914971651551721042016-07-06T19:38:00.001-07:002016-07-06T19:54:20.743-07:00Wasp<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Your convoluted paper house</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">made of fragile tunnels, a network of flowers,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">hive of papery straw wrappers, sunbleached like dead coral,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">and you built that house pressed into the top corner</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">of the outcropped roof, above the pool,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">reappearing every May or June</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">just as I was racing my brother</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">to tag the drain first this summer</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We filled with terror</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">when you came flying in,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">neon yellow and black and raging in the sky,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">my head sucked under the water with a mouthful of air--</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And was this the moment my youngest brother realized</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">if he exhaled before sinking,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">he felt inexplicably calm</span></div>
<span id="docs-internal-guid-5023d54e-c338-cb91-8533-dd9f2df746df"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">about staying underwater for good?</span></span>Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-59659878134676440282016-07-06T19:36:00.002-07:002016-07-06T19:36:53.763-07:00Cake<span id="docs-internal-guid-5023d54e-c336-f0ab-0ac8-6b380cbe1517"></span><br />
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<li dir="ltr" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; list-style-type: decimal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"><div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Combine the dry ingredients first because something about how if this cement touches water too soon, it will become not a corrugated tower but a terse brick.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Combine the wet ingredients (but not the eggs) with the sugar because the sugar dissolves into the butter when you beat them together, it turns glossy yellow, divining down from the whisk, pale yellow silk.</span></div>
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<li dir="ltr" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; list-style-type: decimal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"><div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Beat the egg whites separately because they expand slowly into aerated styrofoamish clouds, pearl sheen when they stiffen, the whisk twists and gathers them into soft towers, mountains and valleys topped with soft, slick fog.</span></div>
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<li dir="ltr" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; list-style-type: decimal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"><div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Fold them into the batter because of the satisfying "thump" they breathe when you drop them on the buttery surface, because of the variegated stripes that form as the spatula gondolas in circles around the mixing bowl's edge.</span></div>
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<li dir="ltr" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; list-style-type: decimal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"><div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Split this batter into three pans because a three-layer cake is a tower, a fortress of floors and floors made for kings.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Put them in the oven because these floors will construct themselves with invisible hands, balloon-blowing yeast inflating into a thousand tiny rooms.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Pour simple syrup over these layers because it perfumes these rooms with shining gloss, fills them with silk and morning.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Frost it because now it is only crumbling drywall, because a palace like this needs smooth white plaster, that soft sweet safe membrane from the heat, from the rain.</span></div>
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Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-18624590544852662772015-09-28T09:22:00.001-07:002015-09-28T09:23:18.710-07:00Barnaul #2<div class="p1">
The bus is shaking, knocking its passengers around;</div>
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it stops- Vzlyotnaya, Svyetochnaya,</div>
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Pavlovskii Trakt,</div>
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and if you could see the original copy,</div>
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(I mean of this poem)</div>
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you could tell how distastrous it is,</div>
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writing a poem on a bus in Barnaul.</div>
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There are things you write about because someone has to write about them,</div>
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if I don't, people will forget Barnaul, or they,</div>
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heaven forbid,</div>
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might never learn what Barnaul is.</div>
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I'm moving soon; even I could forget Barnaul, I guess,</div>
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but what I'd like to remember is:</div>
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1. The mess a bus makes of my handwriting.</div>
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2. The fog on the windows in May (May 3rd).</div>
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3. How the bus nearly tips over when it left-turns over the trolley tracks.</div>
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4. Driving past the beginning of Spring in Siberia.</div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-16288696040817594302015-09-28T09:21:00.003-07:002015-09-28T09:23:35.520-07:0010 Poems, 4<div class="p1">
What do you taste in this cake?</div>
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I didn’t cry into it.</div>
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I did dump the rest of a bottle of vanilla vodka.</div>
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I also burned (carefully) the edges of the meringue in the oven.</div>
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Does it taste like revenge?</div>
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Does it taste like angel bodies?</div>
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Does it taste like the pain of heaven?</div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-57547039432043358852015-09-28T09:21:00.001-07:002015-09-28T09:23:39.390-07:00At the Family Reunion at Zion Ponderosa<div class="p1">
I am not afraid I will feel the metallic scrape-in-the-heart</div>
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of a coyote call at night here; I am afraid that the</div>
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untempered voices of teenagers 30 feet away will not stop</div>
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with the turning of the night; I am afraid that the sound of</div>
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a baby wailing through the canyon will hit the bell</div>
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of my heart, hard, ring out in my warbling throat.</div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-57501274991835314972015-09-28T09:20:00.001-07:002015-09-28T09:22:33.167-07:00Saltines<div class="p1">
When I was in England I was so sick I didn’t eat for a month, and then what I craved was pretzels, soft pretzels, and the only soft pretzel place was so many stops and walks away from me, and I was too tired to leave the house. One morning I woke up craving salt, craving bread, and I went downstairs and poured salt on bread, shaking off the excess in a snowy hiss on the counter. Maybe I was losing salt in tears; I wanted to lose it in blood (from screaming arms) some nights. Today I ate a whole sleeve of saltines for their salt and I don’t miss you. I feel bad for not missing you; putting the salt back into my veins makes it easier to lose in the dark.</div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-65401092245994629772015-09-28T09:19:00.001-07:002015-09-28T09:22:33.179-07:00Cleaning Out the Fridge<div class="p1">
First off, a can of chile peppers in adobo sauce has vomited all over the second floor, its dark and clotted blood trickling down to the lower apartments, in which a bunch of wilted cilantro protests its dismay and a bag of coagulating spinach hits the ceiling with one plastic fist. In smaller containers: pungent minced garlic begins to liquefy into piss mixed with tasteless pale grains, while basil sprouts the soft gray fur of a blankfaced koala. A lemon, skinned of its zest weeks ago, feels its skin blister and tighten, its pores dry with dehydration, and passes out on the ground, buried beneath a single brown-ended celery rib, and beside a still-crisp apple, and behind a yellow pepper in the midst of a midlife crisis.</div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-24744483702455278232014-11-17T15:09:00.000-08:002014-11-17T15:09:27.105-08:00Poems written with pens that need to be used upI. The bakery two blocks from my house<br />
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It is made of brick the color of marzipan folded with flakes of iron,<br />
those spiny needles that reach themselves into Soviet castles, sharp and feathered,<br />
if you hold a magnet above them,<br />
and tease.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-25897560621350432592014-11-13T08:43:00.003-08:002015-09-28T09:22:56.913-07:00Poem, right now, in 337.Stone<br />
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When I think about stones, just one stone, one of them,<br />
it's the singularity of it that holds out,<br />
Something about it that feels impossible to invade,<br />
solid, solid, not made to break or to cut into.<br />
A stone, then, is safer than I am,<br />
a woman lassoed by plane tickets,<br />
pried open with words.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-42345433886800981172014-10-20T12:16:00.004-07:002015-09-28T09:22:56.919-07:00Poem on the train this time last year. The trees are yellow, orange, candy-red fruit falling, in the morning frost dusts the grass.<br />On the train the sun shines through the trees, makes leaves look like hammered gold.<br />I realize that if I focus on waiting, I lose the sweetness of looking<br />I can't see anything before me-- the same if I think about pictures, <div>
documenting or whatever.<br />I sit my chin on the windowsill. Steam from my nose blurs the glass.<br />I'm looking at the sun, flashing between birches; a window to heaven.</div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-18817852956728241962014-10-07T09:29:00.004-07:002014-10-07T09:29:53.928-07:00Didn't write this."Small Wire"<div>
by Anne Sexton<br /><br />My faith<br />is a great weight<br />hung on a small wire,
<br />as doth the spider<br />hang her baby on a thin web,<br />as doth the vine,<br />twiggy and wooden,<br />hold up grapes<br />like eyeballs,<br />as many angels<br />dance on the head of a pin.<div>
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Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-44750334129047802702014-09-29T10:51:00.000-07:002017-09-28T11:59:20.936-07:00GaletteUsually it takes longer than this to recognize failure.<br />
Batches of cookies take a few hours; breads, a few more.<br />
How could we know now how we’ll turn out—golden or brown or bloody and pink?<br />
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You’re never at risk with an apple.<br />
I mean, almonds speak for themselves.<br />
No one ever complained about a lone nectarine.<br />
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Still, you’ll find me slicing nectarine globes into thin half moons,<br />
rolling buttery dough into a wide round,<br />
arranging those slivers into concentric circles,<br />
layered like the petals of a flower;<br />
I’ll fold the crust over itself, the pleats of a dress,<br />
and I’ll put it all in the oven.<br />
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This still-pale crust, folded over,<br />
brushed with egg, dusted with sugar<br />
spiral of yellow converging at its center,<br />
brief hearts dipped with deep red,<br />
each part touched with my hands--<br />
See? sugar under my fingernails,<br />
the stain of juice on my blouse,<br />
I made all of this, pieced it<br />
together all afternoon for you.<br />
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In one moment, it moves from my control;<br />
when into the oven go those careful folds<br />
and rows, that taste of summer,<br />
glittering sugar and slick gold with red veins.<br />
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What I mean to say is, sure! You’re right!<br />
My stupid oven could this whole beautiful thing<br />
into a charred and hardened brick! And summer<br />
could turn you and me, these nights swimming<br />
in overturned heaven in the lake,<br />
into choking anxiety or hot disdain--<br />
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but it’s just dough and fruit now,<br />
and the oven turns nectarines into jewels,<br />
that egg-slicked crust into hammered gold,<br />
studded over with diamonds of sugar,<br />
and you will never love the taste of rolled dough<br />
between my fingers, and nothing good can come<br />
of unbaked, unpolished fruit,<br />
scattered in nervous pieces,<br />
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on my kitchen counter.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-85324369491246881262014-09-29T10:40:00.003-07:002015-09-28T09:22:56.931-07:00Poem 9/16You're eyeing the air above your head, grasping<br />At fleeting small-talk questions, tiny hooks tossed into the lake of me<br />Some draw out raw statistics, impersonal details<br />(My hometown, places I've travelled, what book I'm reading);<br />Others are strung at their ends to great matters;<br />They pull from within me, like trembling silver fish, <br />Gasping for breath.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-461711983467828182014-06-01T17:11:00.000-07:002014-06-01T17:15:51.685-07:00If God So Clothe The Grass<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><i>Note: A few weeks ago, my bishop asked me to give a talk on the topic "how the way we dress reflects how we feel about the Savior." Knowing that such a theme was loaded with social and spiritual implications, I spent a lot of time researching and studying in order to write something I felt was doctrinally sound and thoughtful. I gave my talk last Sunday and since then a few people have asked me for copies. Soooo I just decided to stick it on my blog. </i></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">An apocryphal allegory titled “The Hymn of the Pearl,” chronicles the story of a prince whose parents send him on a mission to obtain a great pearl. As he leaves, his parents promise him a beautiful robe and heirship with his older brother when he returns. However, upon arriving in this new land, he wanders among strangers, forgets who he is, and writes, “I put on a robe like theirs.” He soon adopts the customs of this new place, forgetting his mission altogether. When his parents remind him of his mission in an urgent letter, he remembers his identity and finishes his quest by defeating an evil serpent and obtaining the pearl. He strips off the filthy robes of his former life and returns home to his family.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">Clothing is deeply metaphorical throughout the scriptures, and is especially relevant in this parable. The robe the young man wears in “mortality” represents his forgetfulness of his true identity as a child of royal parents, and his natural inclination to assimilate and take on the qualities of those around him. The robes he will wear upon his return represent the completion of his mission and the work he has done to earn his heirship. In mortality, the way we dress may at times represent different attitudes we have towards situations and people. This particular parable uses clothing as a representation of spiritual progress or the lack thereof.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">In the book of Genesis, after Adam and Eve partake of the fruit and must be cast out of the garden of Eden, Christ makes coats of skins for them, as a covering. This gift of clothing is particularly interesting in light of the fact that Adam and Eve have made clothing for themselves only a few verses before, upon discovering that they were naked. Coming to this point in the creation, I think a lot of us want an explanation. What exactly was wrong with Adam and Eve in their natural state? What was the point of their being clothed?</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">In Mosiah 3:19, we read, “For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord..” In the scriptures, nakedness is a representation of man in his natural state. What’s wrong with our natural state? Essentially, it is void of progress. This brings new meaning to scriptures describing the judgement day, saying,”Wherefore, we shall have a perfect knowledge of… our nakedness.” We will be intensely aware of our lack of progress, of the ways we have fallen short, of the moments we chose to settle back into old, human, natural habits.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">After Adam and Eve speak with the Lord and must be cast out of the garden of Eden, the Lord himself makes coats of skins for them. Adam and Eve are already ostensibly not naked, having made fig leaf aprons for themselves a few verses before. But somehow, the clothing that Christ has to offer is important. Maybe (and probably) it’s much better made. It will protect them physically. And most importantly, it represents his love for them, and will serve as a physical reminder of Him while they travail in the world, separated from Him and from their Heavenly Parents. This clothing represents His Atonement.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">The verse on nakedness I quoted before ends on a different note, saying, “and the righteous shall have a perfect knowledge of their enjoyment, and their righteousness, being clothed with purity, yea, even with the robe of righteousness.” That robe of righteousness is the clothing that Christ has to offer us. It’s a clothing of progress, a clothing that allows us to change and become better than our natural selves. Sure, we can progress, to a degree, on our own. We can walk around wearing fairly primitive fig leaf aprons. Or we can progress towards the stature of Christ and wear the clothing he offers. We can become something greater than ourselves.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">To bring this conversation up to speed, what relevance do these accounts have in relation to the way we dress today?</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">The Savior said, “And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?” These verses relay the idea that our Father will take care of us spiritually and physically, if we will rely on Him completely. As a materially limitless God, He is capable of this mercy. In these verses, God is telling us telling us he’ll clothe us better than the lilies, which are clothed better than the likes of King Solomon. He isn’t offering to dress us in burlap sacks here. He’s offering the best he’s got.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">What does such an assertion say about the way God wants us to dress? What would clothes that come from God look like? Feel like? Are they beautiful? Are they simple? What do they say about us? </span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">The Lord asserts that “Zion must arise and put on her beautiful garments.” The virtuous woman described in Proverbs “maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.” In the Doctrine and Covenants, the Lord counsels us to let our “beauty [be] the beauty of the work of [our] own hands.” Prosperous periods in the Book of Mormon are almost always characterized by the spinning of “fine linen” for clothing.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">Still, expensive clothing used as a status symbol is condemned in the scriptures. The wicked are described as being “alifted up in the pride of [their] hearts, and [wearing] stiff necks and high heads because of the costliness of [their] apparel.” They wear rich colors, jewelry, variable suits of clothing. They desire to attract attention and are probably appearance-obsessed. And yet, the Lord’s clothing is sometimes described as glorious. What does His clothing that say about Him? And in Matthew God promised to clothe us better than King Solomon. What do His promises say about us? </span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">The important thing to remember here is that when we receive blessings from the Lord, we must continue to remember the Lord. I doubt that the Lord would prefer it if we were to (somewhat masochistically) dress in itchy rags for the rest of our lives. Such asceticism (or rejection of the enjoyment of life) isn’t pleasing to God! He wants us to feel happy. I’d even say he wants us to feel beautiful, attractive, comfortable in our skin, aware of our divine heritage.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">How does the way we dress reveal how we feel about the Savior? It shows that we know who we are, and we know our relationship to Him, that with him, we are heirs of a heavenly kingdom. The way we dress an expression of our divine nature and our love. I think more important than any display or non-display of our physical bodies is the display of obedience, the physical representation of where our hearts stand in relation to the Lord. While I don’t profess to understand all the reasons behind the importance of clothing choice, I think it’s doubtful that God instituted clothing as a means to shame us, or make us question our worth.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">A harrowing scene in the classic novel Jane Eyre defines precisely the attitude we should avoid with regards to our clothing or the clothing of others. In this scene, the wicked schoolmaster, Mr. Brocklehurst, surveys his students and notices the vibrant red curly hair of an orphan named Julia. Although her teacher quietly asserts that Julia’s hair is naturally red and curly, Mr. Brocklehurst orders that her hair be cut off and somehow dressed differently. He then orders all the students to line up against the wall, so that he can ascertain their plainness, which he terms modesty.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">“He scrutinised the reverse of these living medals some five minutes, then pronounced sentence. These words fell like the knell of doom -</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">"All those top-knots must be cut off."</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">"Madam," he pursued, "I have a Master to serve whose kingdom is not of this world: my mission is to mortify in these girls the lusts of the flesh; to teach them to clothe themselves with shame-facedness and sobriety, not with braided hair and costly apparel; and each of the young persons before us has a string of hair twisted in plaits which vanity itself might have woven; these, I repeat, must be cut off; think of the time wasted, of--"</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">Mr. Brocklehurst was here interrupted: three other visitors, ladies, now entered the room. They ought to have come a little sooner to have heard his lecture on dress, for they were splendidly attired in velvet, silk, and furs. The two younger of the trio (fine girls of sixteen and seventeen) had grey beaver hats, then in fashion, shaded with ostrich plumes, and from under the brim of this graceful head-dress fell a profusion of light tresses, elaborately curled; the elder lady was enveloped in a costly velvet shawl, trimmed with ermine, and she wore a false front of French curls.”</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">This passage shows that Mr. Brocklehurst’s true motivation is not one of devotion to God, but of condescension and the infliction of shame. He holds others to a standard to which he does not hold himself, or even those who come from a higher social standing than he. With regards to modesty, we must remember that the way others choose to dress is a personal decision. Rather than seek to hold others to our personal standards, we should seek to inspire the testimony of Christ, which is the only true motivation for any commandment-keeping. To very liberally paraphrase a verse in Mark 2:27, “And he said unto them, [clothing] was made for man [and women] and not man for [clothing].”</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">A verse in Joel reads, “ And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the Lord your God: for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil.” More important to the Lord than the state of our clothing is the state of our hearts in relation to him. When we choose to dress or act or do anything out of true love and respect for the Lord, we will always make the right choice.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">The crowning and perhaps the only moment when our clothing will truly reflect our feelings for the Savior will come at the judgement day, when Christ will descend in robes of red, and say, “I have trodden the wine-press alone, and have brought judgment upon all people; and none were with me; ...their blood have I sprinkled upon my garments, and stained all my raiment...And now the year of my redeemed is come; and they shall mention the loving kindness of their Lord, and all that he has bestowed upon them according to his goodness, and according to his loving kindness, forever and ever.”</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;"><br /></span><span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">Our robes, if we are faithful, will be white, cleansed through the Atonement of Christ, our respective clothing a beautiful metaphor of his merciful exchange on our behalf. Speaking to John the Revelator, an elder asks, “What are these which are arrayed in white robes? and whence came they?” Says John, “Sir, thou knowest. And he said to me, These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb.”</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 17.77777862548828px;">I know that the Savior lives, because I've felt his influence in my life, and I believe that if we focus primarily on our testimony of Him and His Atonement, we will be guided and sure in our decisions. Our very lives will reflect how we feel for Him. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.</span></div>
Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-54946399866026939062014-05-01T21:50:00.002-07:002016-10-24T10:04:55.590-07:00Poem from Novosibirsk to KrasnoyarskI was promised inspiration, here<br />
cab car rocking in the middle of the night,<br />
thin white birch trees flashing by in the darkness.<br />
We rumble down the tracks, endlessly,<br />
We stop in still towns, full of dachas, surrounded<br />
by dark, forbidden woods.<br />
Inspiration I've expected, since the first night I awoke,<br />
peering like a child at the trees and stars reeling by.<br />
Now I can't count how many times I've ridden the Trans-Siberian Railroad;<br />
How many times I've felt the string of cars settle to a stop,<br />
sitting outside brightly colored train station after the next;<br />
How many times I've waited in the same stations,<br />
laughed with sarcastic conductors and attendants;<br />
Fumbled for my passport at the train platform;<br />
Told stories in a two-person compartment-- to one, to four,<br />
to ten people, huddled in;<br />
How many times I've made my own bed, rolled out old mattresses,<br />
thick, deep, dense pillows, wondering how to sleep;<br />
How many times I've looked straight up into the night,<br />
to see the stars, holding still, anchored, ordained to their stations,<br />
stiller, stiller than the road or the train or I could ever be.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-60350714846395675002014-04-20T18:32:00.002-07:002014-04-20T18:32:43.664-07:00Easter Movie/Song<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="281" mozallowfullscreen="" src="//player.vimeo.com/video/92455565" webkitallowfullscreen="" width="500"></iframe> <a href="http://vimeo.com/92455565">Wandering Stranger</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/emilybrown">Emily Brown</a> on <a href="https://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-54631174513645712702014-04-19T09:12:00.002-07:002015-09-28T09:24:57.935-07:00Scars<div class="p1">
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I realize now that I am accumulating scars,</div>
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scattered into poems, knotted deeply into the weave</div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span"> </span>of my memory, veins in a stone.</div>
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This most recent, threaded with a blue stitch,</div>
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in my forehead, where everyone can see;</div>
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I watch people seeing it on the bus, and too,</div>
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they look at my nametag, at things that mark me,</div>
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and I watch them putting them together,</div>
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and I wonder how other people things that these things</div>
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happen, if they connect the details outside me,</div>
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fabricating events in my life, simple as an answer to</div>
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the question, “How did you get those stitches on your</div>
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Later it will be, how did you end up with those scars,</div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span"> </span>all of them, wherever they are.</div>
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Three thin lines by my right ankle, the slash on my left arm.</div>
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There will be some dark line here, on my forehead,</div>
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the white line in the little of my right palm,</div>
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and a cluster of scar tissue, like a tiny nebula,</div>
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situated over the arc of my hipbone,</div>
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and if I keep this up, this wild flailing and</div>
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misinterpretation and lack of awareness,</div>
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I will tumble haphazard through the world, dragging its nails</div>
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beneath me, trying to catch what it can catch.</div>
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I will leave skin behind; in return, here are scars,</div>
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deep memories in them, now like dreams,</div>
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now replayed so many times they are oral legend to me.</div>
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Where did you get those scars, says my mind to</div>
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and this repetition begins:</div>
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I released my new album, Green Things, this past weekend! Give it a listen here and visit <a href="http://thisgoeswithus.com/">my website</a> for more information!<br /><br />
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<br /></div>Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-28695845139509487122012-05-05T22:33:00.003-07:002012-05-05T22:33:45.144-07:00By the way...It's a bit late, dear little blig-blog, and most of you probably already know this. BUT still. I have been called to serve in the Russia Novosibirsk Mission! It's above Kazakhstan and Mongolia and runs all the way up to the North Pole! (That is, as far as the land goes.)<br />
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I report July 18th and I'm already learning the Russian alphabet. NUTS.</div>
<br />Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-59688709775162710362012-05-05T16:32:00.001-07:002012-05-31T09:15:23.611-07:00Maylist<br />
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<li>Finish Pilgrim at Tinker Creek.</li>
<li>Go on a big hike (hopefully in Utah?) with my family.</li>
<li>Learn to make fresh bread by heart.</li>
<li>Start Walden.</li>
<li>Learn the Russian alphabet.</li>
<li><strike>Celebrate my mom as much as possible on Mother's Day.</strike></li>
<li><strike>Visit the beach.</strike></li>
<li><strike>Work on piano recordings for Green Things.</strike></li>
<li>Submit poetry to five publications.</li>
<li><strike>Turn twenty-one.</strike></li>
</ol>Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-45236143841008311502012-05-02T16:38:00.001-07:002012-05-02T16:38:58.373-07:00<br />
Hate-hardened heart, O heart of iron<br />
iron is iron till it is rust.<br />
There never was a war that was<br />
not inward; I must<br />
fight till I have conquered in myself what<br />
causes war, but I would not believe it.<br />
I inwardly did nothing.<br />
O Iscariot-like crime!<br />
Beauty is everlasting<br />
and dust is for a time.<br />
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-Marianne Moore, from "In Distrust of Merits"<br />Emilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06011139028416468139noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1477919625518020080.post-80476274137293458082012-04-14T22:03:00.002-07:002012-05-01T23:00:01.271-07:00AprilistYeah, yeah, the month is half over, but this is my Aprilist.<br />
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<li><strike>Open my mission call.</strike></li>
<li><strike>Start recording Green Things.</strike></li>
<li>Watch my favorite movie with Chris.</li>
<li><strike>Go to Niels's mission farewell.</strike></li>
<li>Give 10 things to charity.</li>
<li><strike>Sing in church with Mom and Madelyn.</strike></li>
<li>Write Maddison a letter.</li>
<li><strike>Hang out with London friends.</strike></li>
<li><strike>Make dinner two times.</strike></li>
<li><strike>Keep my room clean.</strike></li>
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